2005-02-07 - 3:19 p.m.

True Love

"If you are willing to trust in a person when all others tell you to go against it, if you are willing to risk getting your heart broken just because you believe in the other person...then that is true love."
Well, there are a few kinks in deanna and I's relationship right now. She gets awful mean to me sometimes. But right now I don't care. I realize that there are going to be alot of hard times with our relationship and with us being at least an hour apart from each other...its going to get increasingly difficult. There is nothing we can do except sit it out, be faithful and be respectful to each other. Yesterday, in the heat of the moment and my temper starting to simmer...I suggested that we go on a break. I really didn't mean it. She kind of wants to though. And now I'm caught up in trying to figure out how to not get a break to happen. I love her. Going on a break will not fix any problems we have. All it will do is push them aside for a little bit. Eventually though, we both know that they will resurface. So why bother going on a break when we still love each other?? One thing that does bug me though, is that she sometimes wonders what it would be like to be with someone else. when she says that...does she mean sexually? physically? or emotionally? none of the above make me very comfortable. I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong that she would wonder what it would be like to be with someone else. It just doesn't make any sense. I really really do love her. All I want is to see her...That always seems to make everything better. I really Love her. As stated in the quote at the top of the page...this is true love. I am doing that right now...And this is true love. we've been going out for 17 months...thats coming up on a year and a half. It took me up until a little while ago to realize that this is true love...and I learn something new each day. I love her...And I always will.

 

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